Forgetting her

Forgetting her is most impossible thing that seems i can do. I find one-way to do that! I have to forget myself first! Drinking all weekdays and smocking make me forget about myself, when I forget my self, i wont think about her............
Sadly after magic of being drunk gone i would feel so depress, even more than before. I wish been drowned once she left me maybe i wasn't drink enough on that night to kill myself at first attemp:((. oh god i miss her so much........