Moment beeing so far

Passing hard moment! only thinking about the sun could make me more powerful and gives a push to go to next step.

I miss you so much Quynh

She is going tomorrow

Strange feeling of fear and hope eating my heart.

You

I felt you are sad and some times unsure
I felt you broken some how felt unsecured
I felt you like always i do

I wish i be there
I wish I could take your hands
i wish i can tell you how much i care
and show you our future together

Love you Q

a day in dark road

Having a hard time

she is having a hard time just like me even more. don't know what she is planning to do but am afraid she become tired of everything and close her eyes on all. don't know but i have strong faith on my love

this one is about you

this one is about you, after all smiles happiness excitement dreams dreams wishes desires, now step back. I imagine you when you been frustrated, and thinking and i draw this.Its hard i know there but there is no condition for my love i am happy with your happiness just waiting for my destiny.

Twin flames

Today i was frustrated but still kept my hope try to read and draw work and relax.
I find something wish to share, its about reunion of two souls called tween flame could answer some of my questions.

Twin Flame relationship is the ultimate balancing of the two primal forces of creation:In this universe twin flames are coming back to unification trough dimensional frequencies in order to restore balance of all creation and collapse duality. when twin souls met they have to answer call of their heart and awaken on a mission connecting with their one true love and feeling completeness and spiritual wholeness of being.
This divine ecstatic union of loves opens the heart so wide you seems to hurt
pulsating waves of passion spiral between you and your beloved feeling melting togather
and feeling you electrically charged! and experiencing you have more energetic than usual.
Twin flames know and appreciate the gift of one another because they relate from a higher awareness of unconditional love for each other.
The more energy love releases, the more energy love will have. Love is the inner gladness and unselfish devotion with no conditions attached. Love is sacrifice of oneself for other people. Love is to give sufficient freedom to the one you love. Love is without selfish desire, complaint and resentment. Love is a top-grade enjoyment of spirit and soul. Love is unselfish devotion without any preconditions.

Just feel better

I got her message after a day! now I feel much better.

Tell me

if you're the middle of night, it's good for dreams
You'll find the door wide open, roses on the stairs
And If I'm melting for one love, I swear to you, I'll change
I'll throw on the street in front of you the souvenirs

Where will you take me, will you love me or will you pester my life
Will you hold me in your arms forever or will you maybe destroy me?

Tell me where will you take me, will you take me to the stars
Or maybe you'll get lost and I'll suffer a lot
Tell me will you love me or will you stab knives
Will you live for me or will you leave, too?

If dreams were road so you could walk
Walk slightly, I would tell you, so you wouldn't wake me up
I'm telling you my truth, I'm afraid of loves
I didn't forget the wave, I don't remember the ships

Where will you take me, will you love me or will you pester my life
Will you hold me in your arms forever or will you maybe destroy me?

Tell me where will you take me, will you take me to the stars
Or maybe you'll get lost and I'll suffer a lot
Tell me will you love me or will you stab knives
Will you live for me or will you leave, too?

Sad day!

After a happy day another sad day arrived, I feel really bad specially when i cant do
anything at this situation. I know she can take care of this but still i wish it doesn't happen.
future still playing and no one knows what next!
keep wishing it ends with happiness and peace for us.

I miss you

6th of June

its a new day
its the time
that all clouds will go away,
my hand would reach her,
its telling me that there will be a spring after all those cold winter nights.
she bloom
wishing this spring be stable and i can survive to summer
I will do my best
i will be the one for her
I promise my self

I am so happy

I am so happy! She give my everything.

Will be by your side

someone said "Life in abundance comes only through great love."
its so true, Since I love her my life is changed.
will be wait until keeping her hand
forever
prying
for
this
every night.

To be her accompany in life train

just first day passed but to me was like a year
i wish i been with her at train.
thinking about few day ago it starts with my gaze and end up with kissing at last minute my heart biting faster when I thinking about it.
she mean a lot to me,
i wish you one day shave my face with your beautiful fingers.............

Already miss you so much, I know she is passing very painful time, i wish could stay there to be by her side listen to her and talk with her, somehow i think she needs me to be there and am feeling guilty by not being there.

Now our loves is growing again, this hope making me to work more serious I would have more responsibility, since i return from her many thing are about changing this the sign i about taking further steps in my life i can sense this.
here is a new chapter of me and her........ new chapter of my life I should keep her happy and do my best to be a one for her.

Today I talk to my parents I told them I considering her as my future wife.My mother always been jealous about other girl but this time after seeing her picture she told me her eyes show she is very kind. I have their blessing now! its good sign again

I am so happy, hoping destiny join us to gather......
I do love you and I know why I do!
cant wait to until see you again please be strong i promise you a bright future and we would make it together.
My heart tell me I will be her accompany in train of life.

Hope

And suddenly hope appeared and lightening inside of this dark night and promise tomorrow sunrise.    "I Trust in love" and i know true love will bring many unbelievable miracle that i never can dream about it. 

Now everything is colorful i feel i back to this world again, am alive full of energy.season of cold and darkness is over its time for an immortal love. In her birthday I reborn, just like it was my birthday too. I feel fire inside of my heart, give me an extreme strength I should prepare my self for tomorrow and real life beside of her. I have a big responsibility i want to make her happiest girl in the world.

 she is only one from billions in the world that I love and want to be with for ever

 

Can not wait until be with her again, I never gonna leave her hand 

LOVE YOU SO MUCH

and Happy Birthday Again!

Just felt her

busy with weekend work, should finish it by tomorrow morning. suddenly felt she is thinking about me, i don't know what should i do when i saw her again just wishing for a worm hug seeing her smile. These day i learn lots of things i wish knew  it before but some times when you are in the game  you can not see the thing people seeing from out side. oh only one day left only one day! feeling fresh blood in my wane i want to run to you.........

Dead Man's Chest

There was a legend about Davy Jones, for every ten years at sea he could spend one day ashore to be with his true love.
such a sweet moment after long time fighting in your life visiting someone that her eyes can give you peace and her smiles could take you to dream,
it sad when you have to go back to sea of problem and fighting alone and knowing there is some one in the ashore far away that you love her madly and truly.
she had a bad day today I didn't ask her what happened but i wish she become better.

Feeling happy

there is some moment that you never think it even could happen but its happening.
having normal conversation with her is something i haven't had for a long time! it cheers me up we talk about everything, bad antenna many disconnections, interrupt us but we still keep calling....
beside of all these thing I had done a great job today I made my boss quiet happy and get coupe of days off I don't believe it! but she is charging me! giving me many energy to do hard things easy! just like past time and i made it. i gunna visit her again! even though it could be short visit!
had look on my phone and it made me smile when i realized that we call each other nearly 100 time over 1 hour thats means a lot....
counting the moment to see you again

my umbrella

I don’t know what she is doing with her decision what has happened since she talk to me I hope she finalize what she want to do and feel better. I wish one day I become something more than reflection of a friend in the window.  

Fear of losing her questioning me! Can I find something gave me the feeling of her head on my shoulder? Is there anything sweeter than taste of her kiss on there the rain? I dig down my soul deep inside of my heart I can’t find any chain stronger than what I developed for her, never can forget her she lives inside of my heart. Maybe I born with this love, it was hidden in the chest until she came and opens it. Just have to control myself let her deiced I want her true happiness. keeping my umbrella up and waiting for her.

Love u so much

two way

I just finished my birthday party! every single min wished her to be here.  some time remembver my last birthday with them.seeing and know other girls around makes me sure about her. she is the only one that can care for ....
she is always straggling about taking choices, do what she want or what the other wants, she is confused again.
I just have to be supporting anything she choose...........
miss you my little angle.

Wings for fly

It was midnight I tried to distract myself by watching movies. Always getting older make me feel weird. Suddenly my phone rings it was her txt, she was first one again! Wish I be luckier this year……..

Fear of not seeing her is constantly growing inside of me having load of job and task! it’s near to end of the May and I still couldn’t make it to visit her. I want to visit her but I chained it really annoying me...

Still trying to make it for her BD not sure if I am able to! but I believe in miracle could it could be happen again just like first meet! I miss her so much! Every day I checking my shoulder if I grow wings to fly to her! Am so lonely without you so lonely!

I wish it again!

haven't see her much on that day, she was up at her room. look busy then she came down just at 12 to give me the gift that she made me. I hold her tight and made my birthday wish, to be with her for ever. haven't got my wish so tonight i wish it again wishing to be with her for ever i know her love in my hear is immortal until i breath i would love her............

Reasons

when u love some one u will notice every single details about them no matter how small.
and when they do something for you feel so touched no matter how simple it was! it could answer many thing make her unforgettable for me. have nice dream.......

ashes of another life

Send away for a priceless gift
One not subtle, one not on the list
Send away for a perfect world
One not simply, so absurd
In these times of doing what you're told
Keep these feelings, no one knows
What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

And I'm staring down
I'm swimming through the ashes of another life
There's no real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down
Send a message to the unborn child
Keep your eyes open for a while
In a box high up on the shelf, left for you, no one else
There's a piece of a puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight

What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

Everyone's pointing their fingers
Always condemning me
And nobody knows what I believe
I believe........................

leave it for the time

Sometimes sinking in thought!

What was that? What has happened between us?

From first time I saw her there were something in me warned me don’t get close to her. I swear that I felt I know her was strange feeling somehow I expecting her in my unconscious.

What made me love her? Not normal love but crazy one like this!

Is this harmony and intimacy I experienced were result of regression of my past life? Do I know her from my last life experience? If it’s true what I have done to be deserved for this separation and missing?

I know it sounds crazy! I just can’t get why I have this much feeling for her but not for anybody else?

List of lame questions occasionally popping up in my mind I don’t really know the answer its better leave it for the time to solve it. Tomorrow is a heavy day….

frustrating

It gross I know it’s annoying I know I feel disgusting….

Repeating samething all the time is frustrating

Smile

Seating on balcony drinking wine and feeling like a bird in the cage.

A bird far far away from his nest, from his everything that left behind, since I moved to Brisbane It always was like this, whenever we have a contact a day after she feels reverse. She takes revenge from both of us, she is doing everything so well even bad things. It’s my entire fault……

I feel pressure on my heart, never mind am happy with my memories I’m happy with memories of my girl walking on the night outside watching moon light and stars, talking to me. we find each other just like miracle I am happy with it.

I am so selfish don’t know whats going on there I don’t even asked her but it I know there is many things over there and I don’t know, I didn’t asked her as well.

She is confused again I can feel it. and I am sure she didn't have a good days.

Talk to me my soul mate tell everything……am embraced that not there to be beside of you.
Asked her to smile maybe that's only thing i could do on that time.

I missed it :(

She called me and I missed it :( sometime i think am so unlucky... i been wait for her call for a long and I missing it..............
Feel nervous will try to call her today. Want hear her voice.............

luggage

Whether is a bit could i went to find my warm cloths inside of my luggage. while i was opening suddenly i heard her perfume inside my became full of tear madly smelling my cloths to find which one is that....... apparently it was in my sick head.
I wish I was a bird could fly, fly far far away to find her see her smile again..........

wearing my birthday shirt maybe wine can heal me for tonight.

But always remember me

Time flying

Last year at this time, I was in my bed thinking next at this i must be married to her.such a sweet  imagination.
This year at this time wishing I live in last year for ever.....

Still cant deal with my void life. its so blank without her

Wish to see her smile

I love being by coast, this place located between dry land and sea worlds.
at the beach i fall in love and at this place i broke inside after she left the house.......... i think now my life is also like beach, Some where between love and breaking.anyway thinking of her gives me strange feeling that could hill me for a while............
keep thinking about her but i desided to not bothe her much, I read some where that absence makes the heart grow fonder. This is probably why lovers who are apart spend most of their time thinking about each other..... maybe its my share.
she is my true love! my only love!
months are passing many thing is changed but my feeling is the same as it use to be..

waves are coming and going, some time strong and sometime gentle but its frequient love that sea sends to golden hair of the sands.
Wish to see her smile soon.

These days I relay need you to miss me. :( my life squeezing me to death and i am straggling with many thing. i wish could talk you i wish i could share my thought with and i wish you...........
please miss me :(

It’s Insignificance

It’s Insignificance I know

My sick mind takes me to time traveling.

When she were sleep on my arm, sleep never could catch my eyes I was dreaming with my opened eyes just wanted to watch her……

Every time she was leaving the house I counting the time till she coming back, I was so blind how can I let her go………..

When I was with her some time she fined me distracted and quiet then she asked me what are you thinking about? ……………………..

I was thinking about the time of separation I had a hope told myself it couldn’t happen, lie to myself she will return back……..

When we went up the month kiera we were seat on the cold rock and I hug her, I hold her tight. she told me I don’t know how can I leave you?…

I am so lonely now nobody can be her for me. I would miss her until life become over.

I know my love is insignificance to what you did for me but it’s all I have……………………

Thinking about you

Thinking about you....................................................................................................
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Thinking a lot.........................................................................
God is very generous he gave me anything I asked for but you..................................
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still don't know why?....................................
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everything is repeating and repeating there is no end for this
closing my eyes and feeling your lips on it, feel your tears on my face
your shaking body on my laps......
anytime thinking about it........
just a flash back in my mind............
How much do you love me?............................
a question which i trying to find an answer for it

my naked chest please stub

After she thinks about what I've told her before, tried to hurt me tried to make me angry she want to push me. She decided to make me to stop loving her, because she wants me to move on. It hurts for her for sure but as I told her I want her to know that I am not angry and I didn’t get hurt, I know her so well she is not good actor I believe she is not or at least she is transparent for me. Even if she really mean it I won’t hurt because I deserve it, I am not self-love and jealous which I wish I were. I wish I could be around her when she feels alone, I wish I be someone for her that she could rely on….. I deserve for her hate, here is my naked chest please stub it. If someone would hurt me one day I want you to do it.

With love and care and respect

pouya