Keep it!

After all of messy time finally i realise that i cant scape from myself i cant run away from my heart. i need to be myself, I'm sad so let it be! I wont try to stop loving her i would keep her love in my heart for ever! i should be feel happy caz i know at least she is living, it better than losing her in accident.....
I gunna keep loving you Q.

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For her

I don't know where are you, I don't know what are you doing i don't know if you still looking at stars before sleep, I don't know if you remember my heart bits.......
I don't know if you still think about me,

I know i miss you a lot, I know i want to give all I have to see you again, i want to give rest of my life just to be with you even just for a day
I need your shoulders to cry

Love you my angle

night

Dim, blurry lights stretch across a night lit city
A color of white like stars hugging themselves to sleep
Many times I meditate within this night lit city
Whenever I recall those memories of my life
Of those days where the number of casualties grew

Black clouds cause the fragile moon to wane
That’s why there are traces of warmth left
Situated in front of a thousand vague verses
Because one often dreams that life is like a poem

I miss those days where sun rays rest on trees
How I love those golden leaves that are now dissolving
Drifting clouds fly across skies without a care in the world
Causing the one I love to dream and hope
I set out to discover all the strokes of elegance

Although I’m a soldier away from home, I still appreciate life
With words from my song and the sound of my laughter
I still search for happiness within my dreams
Even if my words become dazed with longing, grief, and doubt

A night lit city in the middle of a strange land
It submerges in like the rows of frozen trees
A night lit city awaits the person exposed to the hardships of life
Someone who’s fighting this war for a long time already
Someone who probably keeps his own feelings and wishes to himself

Please give me ten fingers like that of an angel’s
Please give me ten fingers like that of an angel’s
So that I can guide the person I love
So I can guide the person who doesn’t love
And the person who hasn’t loved yet

Forgetting her

Forgetting her is most impossible thing that seems i can do. I find one-way to do that! I have to forget myself first! Drinking all weekdays and smocking make me forget about myself, when I forget my self, i wont think about her............
Sadly after magic of being drunk gone i would feel so depress, even more than before. I wish been drowned once she left me maybe i wasn't drink enough on that night to kill myself at first attemp:((. oh god i miss her so much........

until u get here

When we first me i falling in but i never told her. She asked me about my future plan, i didn't know she loves me too. this romance is something so sweet i still can survive from bitter taste of separation when i thinking about past time, it makes me smile. i should been told her what she meant for me. i never can forget the way that her eyes looking on my eyes while we kissing.
Love you uncountable, this love deserves for keeping it forever. wishing her come back one day..............

Redicules Life!

One who love me a lot tried to kill her self, now she cant walk! she is married to a guy and pregnant now! she called me to tell I love you! and i told her love your husband as much as you can he is the one taking care of you, and you are not a normal person any more. the guy she married to is in love with her, even he knows she love me but he made her to marry him.......
she still carry my picture, looking at me when her husband is not around. that guy is sad because he have her body but not her heart....
I'm sad too because i don't love her and she cant forget me........

Such a ridicules life!

Whom I loving her for ever whom I dying for her is with someone else, I let her go because i want her to be happy, because i believe that pure love doesn't have selfishness it all about her happiness not me! sometime asking my self am I wrong? :( i think yes...........
is it my punishment?!
Such a ridicules life!

My share from love is few months being with her, rest of my life thinking about her wishing for seeing her again!

All i know is i can not replace her with anybody else. she is the one for me!

I dreamed her again

I run to her when i reach there turns my hand around her huged her tight staring at her black eyes i felt am melting have no more wishes.I dreamed her she was so real in my dream.
Thanks for visiting me,
happy to see you :)

Grief

ٍEverytime am thinking maybe there is no more i can write there wont be any thing after this post.
but ironically am updating it twice a day some time. this grief don't want to ends for me its like i have to carry it forever. I still prude of it even Thu its painful experience but happy to have it. today is passed like other days....

Still thinking about thoes question she usally ask me at night when my arms been around her. she asked me how long you would still love me after i leave you? how many time you would think about me? how much do you love me? do you think you would keep loving me as fresh as what you have now? do you think i wont become normal for you? what would you do if you had family on the time if return back to you?


thoes question still make busy my mind. maybe my wrong answeres faild me in her love...

Please forgive me but am loving you...........

what if she leave?!

at Vietnamese restaurant unintentionally i was looking for her..... she wasn't by my side to tell me what order. she wasn't to tell me how to eat it. she wasn't here to smile at me and my food don't have the same taste as i watch at her and eating... am so loser
i was eating and watching vn tv i saw see the turtle temple suddenly think what if she leave here, I'm afraid she leave Australia and i don't know how to find her again i magine my self at Hanoi at turtle temple showing her picture to the people in wish of finding her again.... she said her house is not far from there.
oh god hear me plz make miracle i want to be with her..........

Who Do You Believe In

Who Do You Believe In
we parted and barely two days have passed
I came to you yo find I had missed you like years had gone by
Who do you believe in... my heart and I were unaware
Where we had come from or gone to, or whom we had seen

Who do you belive in
There are a hundred thousand things between us...
not just one or two

And if... we forget each other, you and I , where do we go to
For I am you and you are me, as if we are one
One that people call by two names

I tell you the truth; every day that goes by with me in your arms
Is in my eyes the world and twice mor

I tell you the truth; I never dream of anyone but you
Yours I shall remain and if I lose you I will die twice
Who Do You Believe In

can hear me like god?

When i was kid I always talk to god he was my invisible friend always helped me entire my life since i meet her and we seprate. now every night i talking to two indivisible thing god and my soul mate love i know god can hear me but not sure about her.

I wish she can hear that " dustet daram"

3 AM

Its 3 A.M again sleeping time, thinking of her is sound of my life...........
It was allways a goodbye time 3 am she want to go back to her room am looking at her till she going up stare to her room sound of her feet was nice but sad....
I wish i were lulu see her everyday :(
good night my dear anywhere u are your place is in my heart

Void

Void is my feeling, she is not with me don't hard of her for ages some time text her say i love her it feels like screaming under water. just miss her so much last night i cried before sleep imagining her voice when she talk to me in the bed her touch on my face. feel of satisfaction about my life for the first time entire of my life i felt I'm not alone! i find some one has the characteristic that match perfectly.......
i know i never can find anyone be like her for me she was the one would stay at my heart and my brain till last moment of my life......
i feel so void soooooo void miss u q.y.h

You have shattered all of my dreams

You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.
But not you've left me and love another;
You have shattered all of my dreams

her exam must be finished, there would be her graduation ceremony i wish was there maybe i should send her something. missing her is the background sound of my life.

You are My Sunshine

In all my dreams, dear, you seem to leave me
When I awake my poor heart pains.
So when you come back and make me happy
I'll forgive you dear, I'll take all the blame.

i feel vomiting

I feel vomiting too drunk, lost my debit card no money to pay for catch taxi to back home. i walked back 6km :( . sudenly i looked at the sky there where full moon and and passing clouds. first thing comes to my mind was her at play ground laying on and watching sky to gather i feel so miserable :(( plz god i want her back...........
never can wash down from my heart

The One That Got Away

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ahha3Cqe_fk

The One That Got Away

The past is like a handful of dust. It filters through your fingers, disappearing little by little. I wish, for one day, I could go back. In another life I would do things a different way.

i never can love anybody as much i loved her

every night i am thinking. i am reviewing all the past 9 months one by one word by word moment by moment cant sleep at all. There is no space left for someone all i have bongs to her even she is not exist even she is not here...
i never can love anybody as much i loved her

Its real hell

I cant be like this why i cant change why?!! what i have done to my self its a big disaster every day i wake up i remember i don't have her......
its really painful.......................
i wish she don't feel the same i don't want her to suffer

SMS

I was listening to sad music she came to my mind couldn't stop myself i text her......

Going to take care of me

Once i said are you going to take care of my finance and she said baby am tasking care of you.
she did it so well, maybe its best way think its good for me love you so much even i suffering a lot.

pq

we been like pq his exactly same order of english alphabet. sadly now we are like qp cant ee each other face but remmebr we are reflection of each other and seat next to each other. dear q i miss you.
p

Cant Sleep

"Sitting alone, looking at my graduation picture with you. Wondering how could I ever make it. Without you here I find myself drying tears. I wish I could have you here, for ever. I don't wanna be without you....... Cause you know... That you should never left me alone."

She couldnt break it!

I don't know how much I'm guilty about but she couldn't break the chain she rather to stay there
maybe i didn't look safe choice for her. i cant forgive my self...............
"Dustet daram" hope you hear me one day

Breaked music player

Once she said she is like braked music player. i think now am like her trying to busy and make my self happy but as far as i stop it, i am feeling depress even more than before, i wish you could hear i love you............