Hope

And suddenly hope appeared and lightening inside of this dark night and promise tomorrow sunrise.    "I Trust in love" and i know true love will bring many unbelievable miracle that i never can dream about it. 

Now everything is colorful i feel i back to this world again, am alive full of energy.season of cold and darkness is over its time for an immortal love. In her birthday I reborn, just like it was my birthday too. I feel fire inside of my heart, give me an extreme strength I should prepare my self for tomorrow and real life beside of her. I have a big responsibility i want to make her happiest girl in the world.

 she is only one from billions in the world that I love and want to be with for ever

 

Can not wait until be with her again, I never gonna leave her hand 

LOVE YOU SO MUCH

and Happy Birthday Again!

Just felt her

busy with weekend work, should finish it by tomorrow morning. suddenly felt she is thinking about me, i don't know what should i do when i saw her again just wishing for a worm hug seeing her smile. These day i learn lots of things i wish knew  it before but some times when you are in the game  you can not see the thing people seeing from out side. oh only one day left only one day! feeling fresh blood in my wane i want to run to you.........

Dead Man's Chest

There was a legend about Davy Jones, for every ten years at sea he could spend one day ashore to be with his true love.
such a sweet moment after long time fighting in your life visiting someone that her eyes can give you peace and her smiles could take you to dream,
it sad when you have to go back to sea of problem and fighting alone and knowing there is some one in the ashore far away that you love her madly and truly.
she had a bad day today I didn't ask her what happened but i wish she become better.

Feeling happy

there is some moment that you never think it even could happen but its happening.
having normal conversation with her is something i haven't had for a long time! it cheers me up we talk about everything, bad antenna many disconnections, interrupt us but we still keep calling....
beside of all these thing I had done a great job today I made my boss quiet happy and get coupe of days off I don't believe it! but she is charging me! giving me many energy to do hard things easy! just like past time and i made it. i gunna visit her again! even though it could be short visit!
had look on my phone and it made me smile when i realized that we call each other nearly 100 time over 1 hour thats means a lot....
counting the moment to see you again

my umbrella

I don’t know what she is doing with her decision what has happened since she talk to me I hope she finalize what she want to do and feel better. I wish one day I become something more than reflection of a friend in the window.  

Fear of losing her questioning me! Can I find something gave me the feeling of her head on my shoulder? Is there anything sweeter than taste of her kiss on there the rain? I dig down my soul deep inside of my heart I can’t find any chain stronger than what I developed for her, never can forget her she lives inside of my heart. Maybe I born with this love, it was hidden in the chest until she came and opens it. Just have to control myself let her deiced I want her true happiness. keeping my umbrella up and waiting for her.

Love u so much

two way

I just finished my birthday party! every single min wished her to be here.  some time remembver my last birthday with them.seeing and know other girls around makes me sure about her. she is the only one that can care for ....
she is always straggling about taking choices, do what she want or what the other wants, she is confused again.
I just have to be supporting anything she choose...........
miss you my little angle.

Wings for fly

It was midnight I tried to distract myself by watching movies. Always getting older make me feel weird. Suddenly my phone rings it was her txt, she was first one again! Wish I be luckier this year……..

Fear of not seeing her is constantly growing inside of me having load of job and task! it’s near to end of the May and I still couldn’t make it to visit her. I want to visit her but I chained it really annoying me...

Still trying to make it for her BD not sure if I am able to! but I believe in miracle could it could be happen again just like first meet! I miss her so much! Every day I checking my shoulder if I grow wings to fly to her! Am so lonely without you so lonely!

I wish it again!

haven't see her much on that day, she was up at her room. look busy then she came down just at 12 to give me the gift that she made me. I hold her tight and made my birthday wish, to be with her for ever. haven't got my wish so tonight i wish it again wishing to be with her for ever i know her love in my hear is immortal until i breath i would love her............

Reasons

when u love some one u will notice every single details about them no matter how small.
and when they do something for you feel so touched no matter how simple it was! it could answer many thing make her unforgettable for me. have nice dream.......

ashes of another life

Send away for a priceless gift
One not subtle, one not on the list
Send away for a perfect world
One not simply, so absurd
In these times of doing what you're told
Keep these feelings, no one knows
What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

And I'm staring down
I'm swimming through the ashes of another life
There's no real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down
Send a message to the unborn child
Keep your eyes open for a while
In a box high up on the shelf, left for you, no one else
There's a piece of a puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight

What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

Everyone's pointing their fingers
Always condemning me
And nobody knows what I believe
I believe........................

leave it for the time

Sometimes sinking in thought!

What was that? What has happened between us?

From first time I saw her there were something in me warned me don’t get close to her. I swear that I felt I know her was strange feeling somehow I expecting her in my unconscious.

What made me love her? Not normal love but crazy one like this!

Is this harmony and intimacy I experienced were result of regression of my past life? Do I know her from my last life experience? If it’s true what I have done to be deserved for this separation and missing?

I know it sounds crazy! I just can’t get why I have this much feeling for her but not for anybody else?

List of lame questions occasionally popping up in my mind I don’t really know the answer its better leave it for the time to solve it. Tomorrow is a heavy day….

frustrating

It gross I know it’s annoying I know I feel disgusting….

Repeating samething all the time is frustrating

Smile

Seating on balcony drinking wine and feeling like a bird in the cage.

A bird far far away from his nest, from his everything that left behind, since I moved to Brisbane It always was like this, whenever we have a contact a day after she feels reverse. She takes revenge from both of us, she is doing everything so well even bad things. It’s my entire fault……

I feel pressure on my heart, never mind am happy with my memories I’m happy with memories of my girl walking on the night outside watching moon light and stars, talking to me. we find each other just like miracle I am happy with it.

I am so selfish don’t know whats going on there I don’t even asked her but it I know there is many things over there and I don’t know, I didn’t asked her as well.

She is confused again I can feel it. and I am sure she didn't have a good days.

Talk to me my soul mate tell everything……am embraced that not there to be beside of you.
Asked her to smile maybe that's only thing i could do on that time.